:D

_over the summer I made alot of mistakes, but i also meet a great friend. Kaitlin she was a really good friend I could rely on her for anything & everything. I became so obssesed with DeAndre I did anything he wanted me to do, and i mean anything. I loved him or at least i thought I did. and I hurt her in soo many differnet ways even if she does not admit it I know I did. she would pay for gas and I didnt even care because I wanted to see "DeAndre" so fucking bad, how stupid could I be honestley. I watcher her as you could tell she became sick of it because i liked him soo much. But I loved her too, I just wanted another chance with him and didnt want it wrecked in any way. when she came across a new guy i couldnt grasp that she wanted him and didnt have time for me anymore, which honestley dont blame her I was stupid and alright a bitch and a shitty friend.
and we dont talk anymore and I really miss her, I sometimes just sit there and cry thinking about all the fun I had with her. we had soo many good laughs but then it all turned to shit. I am so sorry I love you so much katie baby, you mean alot to me. I mean alot to, this summer I want to hang out alot & catch up. I should have never ever did what I did, I feel so awful.
I hope and I prey that you can forgive me?



I have came to relize no guy, is worth a friendship. remeber all the fun times, pumba,are you aiken,the park all the times without DeAndre and them we didn't need them. It tor us apart and i really fucking hate myself for that.

<3 Brittany Nicole

ps-im so happy u found someone you love, I hope for the best for you and Tony. and i know I messed up onces, but you can tell me anything you need to honestley you can darling I love you very much.

I just really really got to thinking
I was so exited to go on spring break, like their was nothing that could make me not want to go. But Now Jessie doesnt want to go, Im soo pissed. I can't find anyone now that can go, and I dont want to go by myself. And I find myself thinking about certain people all the time, Like DeAndre & Kheion. I dont like him I swear, It's just everytime I talk to Kheion its like the feelings come back. but then their is Teaon and I like him alot I just feel as if I am striving for something I shall never get. It is horrible I can't stand it, Its like seriously the worst feeling.

_ with my bad grades, I swear sometimes I just want to give up on everything. I want to change really bad, I really do. It's so hard going from doing nothing to doing all my work and going to school everyday to get my grades good. I want to make a change, I have been saying this forever now. But this time I really want to do it. A part of the reaason is because of my bestfriend gloria and Aleecia, they say they will help me & If I need them they are always there. They keep me going all the time. I love them soo much. Anotehr thing I have been thinking about is, friends and people you can truse, I trust 11 people, Jess,Ash,Jerrell,Gloria,kristi,Kaitilin,teaon,rose,aleecia,sarah,justine and Tori. I know their are tons of people that dont truse tori I have heared it a million times but I do, she has never said anyting I have said and I love her alot. and Ashley yeah things have happended but I trust her I do I really honestley I do, she lies yeah and tells stuff but in the end she will tell me the truth and work things out. There is soo much on my mind right now, so much. I just want to get away from this all get away from everything.

i want you to know/ what you mean to me/alot/you will never know

[with all the stuff I wanna do]
I'm gonna do it, Im gonna change, their will be a spot for me on graduation day!!

_ have you ever loved someone for over a year?! If you have please comment and tell me, I want to know if these feels I have are normal :(

Brittany & ashley

You are a friend of mine, my heaven’s valentine
Is it any wonder that you are a Star?
Forever in my heart, may your bright light shine

Your light is my lifeline, as fruit from the vine
Let us drink of the wine, not the vinegar
You are a friend of mine, my heaven’s valentine

My heart filled with your light, our cup’filled with wine
Light blessed by God, is no longer secular
Forever in my heart, may your bright light shine

Light of my life, you’re my husband by the Divine
We’re as one, under the sun, warmth from afar
You are a friend of mine, my heaven’s valentine

In the sacrament of matrimony you’re mine
Blessed by the good Lord Who placed you where you are
Forever in my heart, may your bright light shine

Your beauty is the symbol, your love the sign
Of the eternal beauty time cannot mar
You are a friend of mine, my heaven’s valentine
Forever in my heart, may your bright light shine


awweee that was cuute

_ anyone want to be my valintine?!?

guess i had my hopes so high in life, Im not making it any were. what college is going to want me?!? I need to change. I HAVE TO CHANGE---> for the better

RE DID THIS JOURNAL =] ITS BEEN A WHILE <3

- I need to play with Jessica Phillips a.s.a.p she is an amazing person & I love her to pieces, we need to hook it up. LOVE YOU GIRL



<3<3<3 Brittany Nicole <3<3<3

• I MISS GLORIA
• I WANT TO PLAY WITH JESSICA PHILLIPS OVER BREAK!
• I LOVE KELLIE AND MISS HER!!
• I LOVE JESSIE
• I LOVE KAITLIN
• I AM IN <3 WITH BOOTER!!

 

( ( JESSIE ) )

Christmas is here & Im pretty exited, Spend time with my family & family I never really see.... shall be good!


I hope all my beautiful friends have a wonderful christmas <3



MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE


5 days..........


COME BACK TO ME BABY

Christmas is almost here & the best present right now would to be with you... But hey maybe after the holidays things can work out & we can be together once again....


* you take me breath aways.......